Am I the only one that feels the presence of Carl Sagan?

I can almost feel him inside me, I am not kidding. . . when ever I think of him I get this sense of happiness. I am not gay. . . It almost feels like when I had Jesus as a figure back 6 years ago after I became an atheist. I know I am deluded, but does anyone else feel this? He was like the best guy ever to live